recently, as my day of departure increasingly becomes nearer everyday, I have been praying more often for the ‘future’ of everything, including this open door that God has opened for me. well I have been praying since day one, even before I entered into this, I wouldn’t even dare moved if God wasn’t gonna be with me on this thing, to the point that I was even happier if He closed the door. Good thing, my thoughts aren’t His thoughts, because in the entirety of the grueling process more has been revealed to me about my heart and the issues that come out over the time issue (the waiting period was seriously loooong — and I thought I was patient!). In fact I was contented to be in my comfort zone. so recently, I sense that God has been telling me about future distractions. Good distractions (I wanna go and be an intern at IHOP =p ), Bad distractions (the lure of materialism) is all the same — a distraction. I know where I came from and I know where I am going and I know what I am there to do. I have promises that are alive in my heart but I know that everything will be tried and tested once my feet sets foot on the international airport of the new foreign land – yes, including my values, most especially my character. And yet now I am dumbfounded at the Lord’s goodness, preparing me for this upcoming new season He is letting me take the plunge at since obviously I don’t like taking risks. I am all the more determined to be focused, fixed on His gaze, single-focus like a dove’s eye. So I’ve been praying for the future distractions that God will not only deliver me from them, but in a trying moments just strengthen me and in times where my faith will fail, that He shall be the anchor of my faith. And yes, to ask Him to order my steps and give me the courage to obey. It’s scary and exciting at the same time to not know what exactly He has in store for you and to know that He knows what exactly He has in store for you. Just to know that He is sovereign gives me peace.
“give me dove’s eyes, give me undistracted devotion for only You.” — misty Edwards
The Lord says, “I will guide you along the best pathway for you life. I will advise you and watch over you.” – Psalm 32:8
p.s. but I still need to convince myself everyday that it really is for real and that there’s no turning back. Hahhahhaa… 
